the answer...i still don't know..but the only thing i want is to survive 'cos i'm picturing myself in the middle of the ER room crying because i don't know what to do...hope it doesn't happen. please...if u know me, pray for me. and i'll cross my fingers. i wanna reach 25!!
can't accept that my birthday is gonna be in 2 weeks time. wow...i always dreamed of being twenty something and when you actually got to it, u want to go back and wait more years. but i keep myself positive with it 'cos it's not a bad age. i mean, i've just started working, i now have money to spend, i have more independence and the chance to meet new people and do things i could not do before.
but, i miss some things from older days...like spending most of the nights chatting with my BFF until it was day. i can't do it anymore. not only because i have to wake up the following day but also because she's not online anymore :( . where are u greta? i'm missing u so much!!
i have to admit that i've been trying to avoid all kind of information related to christopher in Brasil. i think is my way of preventing myself of getting hurt, in case i don't see him anymore. but who knows...life just changes at every moment.
last friday i remembered why i never go out...'cos shit actually happens!! and it happened. i got totally drunk...like i hadn't done for ages. but the worse thing was to see the "boy that had lived through my dreams" the past few days flirting with another girl...and the worst of all?? that they both work in the same place as me...funny, eh? i guess what's gonna be my reaction 2morrow, and my face...maybe, i'll practise some bitch-face (as Kristen usually does at papz lol). best thing to do in this case, ignore the man!! and i'll do it! prefer to stay alone. it's better for my heart...because i've just spent the whole weekend thinking of damn friday...and luckily i left before.
hope u read this greta...te echo de menos!! siento haberte preocupado xo el viernes estaba tan maaaaaal!!